I heart yoga!!!!!!! Yoga is not exercise in the general sense of the word, but it is definitely work. I didn’t realize just how unflexible and what a tight ball of knots I am. Yoga and I are going to be good friends.
I know I’ve said it a couple of times on here, but I am amazed at myself. Honestly. If you know me in person as a close friend or relative, you would know that I do NOT go into unfamiliar situations alone, I do NOT try new things. I have always been timid and nervous about things like that. Now, if you know me in person as a casual friend, that may surprise you. In familiar surroundings, with familiar people, I have no problem speaking up, being involved and putting myself out there. But in alien territory it’s another story altogether. Which is why I’m really surprised that I went to yoga tonight. It’s why I’m surprised that I’ve gone to aquafit regularly. It’s why I’m surprised that I’m rocking the weight loss thing. This isn’t me. At least not the me that I’ve known for the last 28.75 years. But I like it. I like this other person. She has some confidence. She has an inner strength that she didn’t have or didn’t recognize even a month ago.
I’m still a little nervous that all of a sudden something is going to change and the new and improved Lady Shanny is going to take a nose-dive. Is that dumb?
In all seriousness, can anyone answer these questions: How do I figure out what’s different this time? How do I make sure that whatever it is becomes permanent? How do I stop worrying that it’s all going to crash and burn?